anger is such a hard feeling to decipher as it usually is easier to feel than the true emotion behind it. it can hide the real emotion behind a red wall. you are crying much, i feel that is how we cleanse our souls, truly a gift from god. i know it is not comfortable, the stuffy nose, red swollen eyes. these are the outward signs to show the world that we feel. if we feel we know we are alive. we are made up of all the experiences of our lives, our minds and bodies remember them all and the emotions associated with them. we may not consiously recall these memories but we dream, feel, cry, act out and all these other things so we can work through all of the feelings we have experienced and are currently experiencing. try not to let others bring you down. they dont realize what they have. you are a light. you may feel as if you arent burning as brightly but you still shine. i hope your pain eases and the tears flow less. i send you warmth and strength to help bring you up.