Well, tomorrow is my 25th birthday, I'll be a quarter of a century old. (Still young to some) But I don't really feel like celebrating. Yea, I'm having like 6-7 people come over but they all aren't staying long. Like at all. And the ONE person I do want there, isn't gonna be there. And even if I asked her to come, she won't because she hates every single person that I know practically. I wish she would want to come, but I know she won't.

I feel pain, I'm hurt, I'm lonely and scared. It's my birthday but no one seems to notice. Im turning 25 years old, my liscence expires tomorrow, my tags for my truck expire as well, I have my doctors apt tomorrow to up my Lamictal dosage. Moneywise all in all I need almost $170 plus living expenses for the next 4 days. (gas, food...etc) But I don't have any money besides to get me to work and home tomorrow. Thats it! a whole $5 to last me till Tuesday. Somehow I don't see that working. I literally have no food in my apartment. I wish that was a joke. I've eaten at my parents houses during the week for dinner but thats it. I've only been having one meal a day for the whole week cause I've been that ridiculously broke. I'm overwhelmed.

What a great way to spend my birthday...

misrable...

~A