Man, that just made my heart sink.... I know you can stop but know I know it's not in you to stop right now, because you became addicted agin.

You asked for help before you do something more, and the only thing I can say is to find something else to occupy your mind. Learn new things, read a book (something that wont trigger), BUT above all else dont' just sit and do nothing or you will do something worse then what has already been done. Just use this method if it helps
Stop
Think
React

Go through each one, and think, am I stoping what I am doing to think about what is about to happen, and then react in the Right place. This does work, I use it all the time, Good luck and keep us posted.