((((( zoo )))))
You ARE ok. You ARE. Even now, when you feel like you're coming unglued. You are OK....And things will get better. Remember, these feelings will pass. It's hard to imagine that right now, but they will.
You are doing such an awesome job of not resorting to unhealthy ways of coping. I hope you can find a way to ride these waves until they pass. Take deep breaths. You ARE ok....I mean it.