god. thank you, MUE. That's what my T says to me, too. I have been working so hard on being able to tell myself that I'm okay. Sometimes it's easier than others. So, thank you.

If I can get through this in one piece i know I will feel so much better, and I can look back on this and see that I got through it and draw strength from that. I just have to not DO anything. And sometimes that's the hardest thing possible.