thanks Blue.
I have been on 100mg for 2 weeks, and this is where I've been told to stay, at least until my next app in 3 months!
My spells come out of no-where, last a good few hours, where i question the point of my life and have suicidal ideations at time. I cant even explain my mood during these times-very depressed, emotional, tearful...
I have been thro a lot lately, with a change in job portfolio, then away on conference for a week, then training for a week... But these spells started before then.

I sms'd my T y/day, and she seems to think it is more a case of burnout-too much on the go and no down time. But that doesn't help me. I need my job, and I'm not about to tell my manager about my depression/BP II. I need meds and coping mechanisms; i need friends that will listen.
I'm not sure if a T is really that helpful to me.