hi,

I am just going to skip to what is going on...I was in the hospital for a week for mental evaluation and when I got out the next day I was in the ER for excrusiation lower right pain in abdomen. They ran blood tests and did x-ray and said it was constipation. I didn't question it cause it's been years since have had that happen and am on LOTS of medication that can cause that especially some pain meds. So I did what they asked and came home and the pain went away for maybe 2 days.

Anyways yesterday I went into my primary doc in more pain than before. My doc is so nice and spent like 45 min with me trying to figure out what this is. He ran some more blood tests for liver and pancras...and did an ultrasound to make sure i didn't have any cysts. the ultrasound was good...so that's good.

Now am concerned this is just in my head, the pain is so bad at times, he gave me a script for tramodol and have taken a couple, but am not a fan of pain meds cause they make me pretty tired, but i do need sleep.
Anyways, i am just so frustrated with myself that it's one thing after another or so it seems. When I called my mom yesterday she said it's always something with you isn't it? All I said was yeah it seems to be.
I know that stress can make you have physical pains/symptoms with no findings of anything wrong....I just don't get it.

I want them to find something cause have been told before that when I have had something wrong and actually they did surgery that it was psychological and that was that. So now am scared they are going to say the same thing this time.

The pain can be so bad that just walking or sitting or actually doing anything is so hard. I don't know what to do/think about this. I think am a hypochondriac with all this stuff cause I am always at the doc whether for blood work or being sick or psych appts.

I am on a lot of medicaton for things and thought that it was causing the severe pain, but have been on these meds for sometime except they add or take away sometimes and i am ok with that physically anyways.

I mean i don't want anything bad wrong with me...don't get me wrong. But I don't want them to come back and say we can't find anything wrong cause I know what that means, and I don't think i could go back to the clinic ever again.

Anyways, thanks for my rambling. I am sorry it's so long, I am just so frustrated with myself cause something is always wrong and I try and just let it go till it is bad, but this time the pain is SOOOo bad that I got scared it was my appendix, but must not be.

Thanks again
Hugs,
jen