The last few days I have hit a remarkable insight in my recovery. I am unhappy and it is okay! Like many borderlines I've "done it all" in the effort to avoid feeling bad. Eating disorder, substance abuse, self-injury, suicide attempts, codependent relationships... and worse. It really is remarkable for me to realize that I am lonely, bored, and unhappy, but that I'm still okay! I still have hope for the future and I know that things will get better.