((((yoshi))))

Haven't seen you for a while yoshi, good to see you though the circumstances aren't that good.

Forget looks, looks mean nothing and will fade anyway. There must be something else there if they are always leaving you. And (tell me if I am wrong but from the terms of your post) that thing may be that you are not ready to escalate the relationship to a full physical one.

Yoshi I am SO PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT! Some girls give in thinking they will keep the guy and he dumps them anyway because he got what he wanted which was sex, not a relationship (Not all men are like this though). This guy seems to be the major manipulator not you. Imo He is trying to manipulate you for sex but doesn't want to be told no because you're not ready as he sees that as manipulation; he probably sees it as a way for you to keep him hanging on and that attitude is a very poor one, and it shows that he is not thinking of you at all, he is only thinking of himself and his needs.

The right one will come along and there will be no question of you waiting until you are ready or married whichever comes first, he will be happy that you are happy. I just think you deserve to be happy be respected and choose what is right for you hon and that should include you waiting until you are ready.