Okay ... YOU ARE DOING OKAY!!! You are doing "this" really well and I'm proud of you for doing such good self care.

I do hope you won't ruminate about all the possible problems with this situation (even though you have been through such before) ... you don't need the extra worry and you can't do anything until the day you need to meet or talk or whatever.

I don't know the whole situation ... it sounded like you lost your T, then just can't see her any more, to maybe she's taking a long vacation or sick leave??? In any sense though, it's very tough to go without your T whom you trust and who "glues" you together.

One foot after the other.