Denise I'm glad you are having a good day, wish it wasn't from self medicating. You really deserve some happiness in your life.

PT52 sorry things are not going so well for you. Hoping for your mood to lift and things go well with your hubs.

sundog sorry you are having a blah day. I can understand where you are coming from. I know that feeling all to well. Hoping things get better for you. Don't be to hard on yourself for not getting those things done.

thinker I'm really happy you are feeling so great. I really hope it doesn't take you to a manic state.

Andy I hate to hear things got the best of you and wound up SI. I know how difficult it can be to fight that beast. I hope you can win that battle in the future. Glad you are feeling a little better today.

Innerzone glad you are able to keep up with things even with the lack of sleep. I hope for your sake your schedule doesn't change again. Glad your mood is pretty good and hoping your not going hypo.


Up early again today. I hate that this is becoming a norm for me. I really hate all the hours I have to face during the day. If I could get motivated and do something it wouldn't be so bad. I struggle to do the things I have to do. I stay so bored which makes me anxious and restless. I try not to take my klonipen because I don't want to become addicted or it stop working. I usually end up taking one though when it gets unbearable which seems to be more frequent lately. I wish I could just find something to occupy my time. I feel so frickin lazy because I don't do the things I should. I can manage to make myself to do the no choice but to be done things but I can't seem to force myself to do the other things like cleaning house. I'm really starting to get irritated with myself because I'm not functional like I used to be. I can only imagine what other people think of me. I worry my husband will get tired of picking up my slack. He is very understanding but everyone has a limit. I know most of this is in my head but I can't shake my feelings. Oh what I would give to be back to my old self. I'm so tired of struggling to be half way normal.