tried to post this last night but then PC went down

JD, sorry I wasn't very clear in my OP, I was just upset and not thinking that clearly. No, I didn't lose my T, she just went on vacation, lol. I'll see her in a little over a week. I think that talking to her on Thurs night while it was really, really helpful, was also difficult because I knew it was the last time I'd talk to her before she left. And after the hugely emotional week I had, it just really made me sad.

I'm not worrying too much about the funding issue. I trust my T when she says she is going to walk through this with me, all the way. And she has told me more than once "I didn't carry you this far to drop you now." Also my case manager said she won't let that happen (the county refusing to pay for my therapy). So, it does freak me out a little bit, because I just don't like to think about anything changing with T, but mostly I'm ok with it. And that in itself is enormous progress for me!!