(((MandiePoo))) - I just hurt my back an hour ago and I'm in severe pain but I wanted you to know I read your post. I'm so sorry for the abuse you suffered and how it snatched your self esteem. You are a good person even if you've made mistakes ...we all do. I wish I could say my usual inspiring words but this pain is making it hard. I'm sending you safe cyber hugs and holding your hand. Sending good vibes your way during this difficult time.