Hey Lexiesbaby, thank you verymuch for your private message that I got today. Already from that I can tell that you are a very caring person.
I wanted to respond mostly to your second post in this since Rapunzel covered what I would have said as well very nicely. I wanted to talk about this sentence in particular

"till hurts so much knowing that she doesn't want to be with me anymore."

I truly believe that she wants to be with you but just can't handle it anymore. As Rapunzel has said in her first post I believe "It's hard to care for someone when they continue to hurt themselves" or something along those lines. It's true what you said, we are in the same boat and I know what it's like to be let go in the same fashion. No it's not a girlfriend that is telling me they can't handle it, it's close friends that I have had for years. They have finally had enough of seeing me hurting and can't continue being my friend. It hurts like a banshee but you need to know that time is the only thing to make thing's better not "Rush Phsyciatric Assistance" or things like that. Although it may work for you who knows, also talking can for some people but I know that only tim will heal me and in the meantime I just try to focus my mind on being at peace with their decision. Try working on it and see what happens...
Sorry that this post wasn't spectacular or the most moving griping post ever but I hope it helps.

Ian

Death Calls Us All, How Long We Prolong It Is Our Choice