Well, I finally went to the new psychiatrist yesterday and got my meds. She was very nice. I played the system and did not mention any "bpd" symptoms, such as self-harm. I need treatment so very badly that I can't afford to tell right now.

Later on, though, when she and trust each other a little, I will maybe mention bpd, without letting on. I will ask her, "What is your take on bpd? Are you uncomfortable with it, or do you treat bpd's?"

That experience I had back in July was such a nightmare.

No meds for two months.

I could have canceled yeterday's appt., but I didn't. Part of me is hopeful that not all professionals will hate me.

Now I have meds and I slept good last night.

Billi