I can't handle being this way anymore. I'm 40 years old and am on about 3 anti-depressants plus ritalin. I have no friends, I've lost so many jobs and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna lose this new job I have as well (it's only temporary anyway). I want to die, but I can't, my daughter needs me, but she sees how depressed I am, I know I've been a good mom, but I hate this life, I HATE IT!!! I feel like God is punishing me and I know people have worse problems, I don't know, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.