I do enjoy the job, but I don't think my boss likes me, I still feel like I'm screwing everything up, I've been and out of therapy for years, my pdoc did have me up my Prozac, but there was some confusion with the prescription, ugh, it's a long story. I think Ritalin might be contributing to it, I'm not taking any today, I'll see how I feel. My daughter does know what depression is, but I don't think anyone really knows what it feels like unless they go thru it themselves. I just wanna go on disability and hide from the world forever. I don't even have friends or a boyfriend like normal people. I obviously was never meant to be here. But I don't feel suicidal, I would never do that to my daughter, that would mean she would live with her father, who lives with his step-mother, who is a witch.