I want to move up north. To Maine or Masachusetts. Some New England. Some place pretty and spooky. I don't know why I associate New Engalnd with halloween but I do and that's my favorite time of year. i just want to get out of Kentucky. I am not very good at staying put for too long. 6 years in one house is wearing on me. I want to just pack up my kids and husband sell everything and move. I am so bored with the same old scenery. Day in day out same thing. Go to the store once a day for cigs and a newspaper. Go to town once a week for groceries and new books at the library. And to the other town once a month for pdoc and gp visits. Cleaning day on Monday. Laundry day on Saturday. Boy Scouts on Tuesday. I am so bored I could just crawl out of my skin. Nothing to do. No family to visit. Nothing. My life has become a big schedualed ritual that I am sick to hell of. I hate settling. I hate this. Same t.v. shows at night. Mabye rent a movie on Saturdays. I think that's what is wrong with me. I feel trapped here. I thought i would love to settle down and be in one spot forever but nope. I feel like I am just going to wither away here. Grow old and die here.