i used to feel like that too. for me it was a kind of unconscious vengeance, like if he didn't appreciate me now, he'd regret it because i'd be gone...
i don't feel that way anymore though. i've been doing alot of soul-searching and i came to believe that it doesn't matter if some people don't like me or don't appreciate me, i'm living for myself and not for anyone else
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