I'm doing pretty well. I have some new memories that came up during and after my session last week and that is hard. They are really pushing at me, whether I'm awake or asleep. But I think I'm ok.

I'm really looking at this as an opportunity to see how well I can take care of myself (emotionally). I've been saying that I want to get to a place where I can tell myself I'm okay and I'm going to be okay, and T being gone is a good chance for me to practice that. I don't like the feeling of relying on someone else to complete me or stabilize me. Because T is not always here with me, and inevitably, eventually I won't have T anymore.
I am stuck with me, however, so I'm working really really hard at loving myself and cheerleading myself.