Rap,

Reading this thread was overwhelming. We've been stuck with what sort of response we could come up with. We've been working on that for days and still come up empty.

Wow. Freakin' wow. How on earth are you managing through all that?!! You had mentioned some of what was going on but to read it all here in this thread really is eye opening as to how much stress you are dealing with in your life. We had no idea about your husband's health. (((Rap)))) how scary!

we hope you realize that ODs of any amount can be dangerous and there are other ways of coping. we know you know but it can be frightening to read about when someone is doing this as a method of coping.....especially when one knows the dangers firsthand from their own previous experiences. we were very fortunate to have a friendly pharmacist explain to us EXACTLY what our chosen OD was doing to our body. we stopped that immediately when we realized our kidneys wouldn't tolerate what we were putting them through. please please remember your liver loves you too and doesn't want to deal with excessive amounts of non essential medications.

please reach out to your resources (T, here, trusted friends) to let them know how hard a time you're having.

still stunned and wishing we had more to offer,
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