Hello ((((((((feary))))))))

Maybe you feel this way because you feel you have no one to rely on, no one to lean on now that you are an adult? Or because there is no one to rely on you and make you feel more useful or better about your position?

Putting all of your wellness into making others comfortable first has depleted you to the "panic level" and now you are at the empty level and you feel you have literally nothing left to give and so you feel unhappy because you feel useless?

Maybe medications don't work because your own mind is too heavy set in the decision that you will fail and that nothing will work for you since your marriage ended? I may be very wrong there, but most of us go through that stage and anxiety makes it worse. I do know how you feel feary; I feel very supportive of you because I've been through what you are going through now. I know the seemingly enless climb to the top of the pit only to be either dragged back down by depression or slide back down because of the anxiety and panic.

But you will only be able to start making real progress when you let go of resentment of your ex and his family. Sometimes things just do not work out and we have to let them go. If you keep your mind steeped in resentment that is all it will know, and I am hoping that is not what you want for yourself. Conscious letting go is the thing that can strengthen you by not allowing the issue you are letting go of, to control you and your thoughts any longer than absolutely necessary. I'm not into revenge but if there has to be any, let success be the best revenge feary, your success

Rhiannon