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Originally Posted by MandiePoo
I am just so tired of sabotaging my relationships with those who probably truly did care for me, but due to my reactions constantly have given up on me. I've lost a lot of amazing people that way and you can't blame them you know? Its not their responsibility to be my hero. I have to figure out how to do that myself.  |
Dearest MandiePoo,
((((((((safe hugs))))))))
I was unable to read right through because of my own issues but I do know what you went through and I do know that you are way far more worthy than you realise.
I just want you to know that you are not alone and that you are cared about a great deal. Just as you don't want to blame others, please don't blame yourself either. It's not your fault and it never was.
I really hope that you can get some help with your reactions and responses which have cost you important relationships and maybe friendships too. It was never ever your fault or your choosing that started this thing to begin with, so please don't blame yourself now. Hold your head up and take any hand that offers you help or support through this, knowing you are worthy of the best love