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Sep 13, 2010, 12:49 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2007
Location: Midwest
Posts: 5,042
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Yesterday was the anniversary of my father's death. This year I have the added bonus of excessive hormones.
I hate not being able to trust my thoughts and emotions. I hate being a raw nerve. Everything is exaggerated. I have been telling myself if I can just get through this day tomorrow will be better. It is tomorrow and all of those feelings did not magically disappear, I knew they wouldn't, but I still hoped.
I knew I would deal with the loss for the rest of my life, I just didn't realize I would grieve to this degree forever. It has been five years now. I am thankful that it is only the month of September that cripples me, but I still haven't learned how to deal with September.
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I've been married for 24 years and have four wonderful children.
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