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Sep 13, 2010, 06:34 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2007
Location: Midwest
Posts: 5,042
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I understand what you mean about shutting it out. I can do that 11 months out of the year, I think of him still several times a week but the loss I am able to keep that at bay. September really sucks. His birthday was on the 8th, he died on the 12th and was buried on my mother's birthday the 15th. It is the one time of the year that I cannot lock it away.
I think this is coping, I do not think it disloyal at all.  Thanks for being there. Brian's been trying to comfort me from a distance all week. He knows that I wouldn't be able to deal with it out in the open, so he's been extra kind, caring and sweet knowing I am having a hard time. But at the same time pretending he know doesn't the battle I'm fighting now.
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I've been married for 24 years and have four wonderful children.
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