I am not sure whether to post this under anxiety or depression. It overlaps both. On most days, I have not felt in the same universe as "well" lately. I decided to make a list of all my stressors and destressors today, so I can start getting proactive. Well, talk about getting surprised by the obvious. The "stressors" column is bursting at the seams with things that always set me off, the "destressors" column is looking pretty sparse - and its partly a matter of genuine lack of availability right now, partly my increasingly rotten mood making me overlook what's left. At least I am feeling a sense of clarity today, which is a big relief. Just wish my old problems with low self-confidence and worry would stop going into overdrive at times like this. Some days they are absolutely smashing me flat in spite of meds, therapy and self-help efforts. I need to focus on problem-solving instead of analyzing my own gloomy thoughts, but my stressed-out, pessimistic, avoidant mind seems completely obsessed with the latter.

All I can say is, hugs would be appreciated right now, and I do apologize if I have been irritable or moody in the chatrooms. I am just trying my best to take all this day by day, its all I can do.