((Katheryn)) - I'm sorry you're still grieving and so kind of you to help the family of your friend. I wonder if taking care of her grand kids was your way of dealing with the pain. Now they're moving onto a new stage in their life and you're left wondering how to cope with grief that's still strong. Maybe this was preventing you from feeling the pain because you weren't sure you could handle it - what do you think? Sending strong hugs to hold you up Katheryn.