So this moving thing has ben driving me nuts for a long long time...as you guys all know...

Rural environment....all of my anxiety/feelings get directed inward because there is no where to get out to. No one to talk to....the weeks and days blend together until I am afraid I am going to lose it. Friday night? Huh? What's that??? That means more of the same - watch TV.

I don't know how to manage these feelings. Most of the time I feel like I am going to explode. I am not a home-body and after a while I feel as if I am going mad...

Was ok until the lovely incident that led me home again...now it's this vicious cycle of, "If I mess up, I have to go "home" again....like punishment...I do not want to spend the rest of my life is this cycle. The truth is, I can never go to my old home again. I feel like I wake up in a nightmare that never ends and has no solution.