Got a call from my daughter's birth mother this morning. She told me she did not want me to call her daughter again. I told her that she did not have the right to call and ask this and that if she called again she would be reported. Did it. So much pain. Kid is heading back to the swamp where she was born. I was ill in my tummy all day and so sad. I really need to be able to move on. I loved this child and wanted the best but it is not to be. I hurt due to the pain my behaviors af foster kids and adoption caused the home growns. Wish I were younger and hubby worked right cause we would have a baby to reaffirm our faith in the unuverse and to protect this one totally. Dramin, I know.