Hey guys, sorry I'm not very active lately. I was up for 3 days straight self-medicating. Been done with that substance for about 2 days and now the anxiety has set back in, the depression. I'm constantly so frustrated and dont even know why. All day I have had episodes where I am frozen with an overwhelming feeling of hurt and sadness and despair come over me and its all I can do not to break down in a puddle of screaming tears. I am tired of living a worthless, pointless, irrelevant life. I am tired of feeling. I just want it to be over. Why must we suffer so when those who thoroughly enjoy life so often get to escape it early?