I really understand billie. Recently I worked my guts out in a friendship and had those same guts kicked because I wasn't working hard enough (never mind that I spent every waking moment supporting them). I found something very important out though. I care too quickly and often get disappointed just as rapidly.

But people are who they are and they will meet someone just like themselves later on in life and the same will happen to them. I know when I was young I was hard work. I was damaged goods and even though I don't like him now, the only one who persevered with me was my exhusband. But I got better despite him, his work extracted a price I could no longer afford.

And now my partner DJ who has always been there for me and I feel that this relationship is 900 years old and we know each other so well. I am thankful for being able to change certain things about myself when I recognised they were damaged and though there are the occasional flares they are nothing what they used to be. Take care billie