Um, I can't believe I'm posting this.

It's like I was just reminded of this after so long. Ever since I was a little girl I've felt pleasure from wearing diapers and acting like a baby in that way. I don't want to BE a baby, but it's sort of erotic to me to take part in the diaper-lover fetish or whatever it is. I feel like such a freak because of this Can you imagine what people like my peers and my parents would think if they knew about this??? I know I'm starting too many threads about different topics, but this goes along with my worrying about wanting to be part of the BDSM scene someday and I worry I'm a pervert or a freak or something. Is this even close to normal?