(((((Googley)))))

I'm sorry you are feeling so awful and that tomorrow night seems so far away. I see T tomorrow afternoon and that seems like a long time too. Do you have a phone or email arrangement with your T? Do you know what she wants you to do when you feel like you need her so badly?

Maybe you can write her a letter or an email even if you can't send it. Then tomorrow she will know how you felt right now. Or, can you imagine her talking to you? Sometimes it helps me to think about a time when T and I felt really connected, and replay the scene. Or I reread her emails.

If all else fails, I read a novel, something that makes me forget about therapy. Or, do something you like that will distract you if reading doesn't do that for you.

Or, do you want to post more about why you're feeling so awful? Wish I could help more! Sending you hugs and hopes that tomorrow night comes SOON for you.