Thanks PT52. They were supposed to give me the blood test results today and I even called them after I got home from work. They took my number and said they would call me back. They haven't. Oh well, I guess no news is good news. Will have to wait until tomorrow. I'm probably obsessing, but I think thoughts like "I'm fat" all the time. I'm worried I am somewhat anorexic, but it's not that I'm starving myself...I just have a low appetite and I adjust accordingly. I know I'm not fat. In fact I'm skinny, but now my mind is thinking negative thoughts about my body. I never used to obsess about my weight until I started losing so much. Now I check the scale twice a day. I know I should gain weight and get back to between 110-115 so at least more of my clothes would fit me again, but I secretly fear gaining weight. It's like the weight loss triggered this whole other part of me that never used to care if I was 135 or whatever, but now it's hyperactive and disappointed if I gain a pound back.
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Human decency is not derived from religion. It precedes it.
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