Well, this is something I've tug-or-war'ed with myself over the yrs...I use to be a nice size until the kids come along...lost loads of weight 8yrs ago during my last yr of active alcoholism and in my head thought I looked great, but you know what?? my insides were a mess...I think we have a fantasy around what "looking good" will do for us...but what I've learnt is... if I sit with myself each morning in quite contemplation then fantasy's around what would make me feel better about myself just drain away and I could be ten ton tessy walking down me grocery aisles at work, I just feel real good about myself...yes in our fantasys that society and magazines and so forth have helped build into our psyches are hard to get past..but if you do then you laugh and realize how pulled into the madness we get...I mean take a look at early paintings, no Barbie dolls there....But I know some people have a different view and feel if they have control over their bodies (narcissism?) then they're in control of their negative feelings...and if I take my T (helps keep this topic here .) shes not a very attractive woman (oh god please forgive me for saying that) but shes the most beautifulest woman I've ever met!