sannah i think you are very beautiful and are deserving to have yourself treat yourself like a queen.you are amazing.
i can totally understand the pic thing.i travel a lot and take a lot of pic and really hate to look at myself in them.i was about 50 lbs over weight for my size.although in the last 8 months i have lost about 31 lbs i still have a ways to go before i hit my goal and it is hard.
one of the things i do is go to the mall and look at cloths i would like to wear and couldnt because of my weight i then would try on cloths a size smaller they would eventually fit me and wow that made me feel great.keeps me going on the loosing weight front.it isnt easy and i have good days and bad days.
i also feel my husband deserves to have someone who is healthier but i worry sometimes that he wouldnt love me for long if i stayed at my heaviest weight.
let us know how you do sannah it isnt an easy thing to do at all ((hugs))