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Originally Posted by caitlineli
Yes! I blamed myself for everything, just as my mother did, and my successes are all luck or something. I am now 68, and I still cannot remember what I was planning to do if there is any distraction available--TV, Internet, book, catalogs to flip through and daydream. I have known about my ADD for a lot of yeears but I had to stop my meds because I was hallucinating. I am now physically disabled, and feeling that I wasted my whole life by being depressed and wallowing in self-pity, with no possibility of a meaningful future. I am so glad there is somewhere where I can rant about this.
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I was diagnosed at age 63 - I feel the same way - that my life was wasted - my career was a mess - I was the marginal nurse - although I never was criticized for my clinical nursing - It was always the paperwork. I'm retired but still working 3 shifts a week- I'm in physical pain all the time. I have degenerative disc disease in my neck. I have scoliosis in my mid-back area (probably had it my whole life and it was never discovered)have chronic sciatica (pain in hip area)- I have spasms in my feet- and thats only the physical problems - I wish there was some way I could turn back time and re-do everything. Sue Abrams
