Thanks Melissa,
I guess it's a case of having to just deal with it. To shut up and get on with it. Put the extra hours in, climb thro the work, tell everyone else to bugger off; and come out the other side looking rosier.
But right now it doesn't look like an option. I know it always feels worse when you're in it, and in hindsight it always looks petty.
But I really hate this and feel terrible.