I F&n Hate being bibpolar. Its so loney even with people around .I have to keep so much locked up in my head so not to scary my wife or kids but im barely holding on sometimes .Snice ive been put on SSD I am locked out of all the programs I use to go to .I make to much now with sdd they said . Well what the f... am I apost to do. You have to have the knife on your wrist cutting to be put in the hospital know days .They are all filled up with junkies and thats where the money at I guess . I sit around thinking horrible painful things all day well trying to behave normal for the sake of those around. When dose it F&n stop. Im not looking for any advice Im just mad it hurts so much and I wont something to be mad at other then myself so im attacking this message broad . Im sure you will edit this so ....