(((deneb))) i'm sorry hon.
i know you loved him a whole heap.
he was lucky to be loved so much.
he had a good life.

sometimes it can be hard...
i remember reading something about flowers...
one can mourn because their beauty is so transient
or one can appreciate them all the more because their time is limited.
sounds like hammie was pretty special
and he was lucky he had you to see that.