SPOILER: Editing to put sui spoiler....nothing graphic and no intent



I am warming up to my new T. He is kind of animated and funny. But I have one problem...every week he does the sui scale, and asks the 4 sui questions. I know the answers by heart, so I mumble off what I need to say to get past it. I am so freaked out at even getting close to that subject. It has gotten me hospitalized a few times...and I ain't going to get hospitalized again. SO I lie my way thru it, knowing one false move might get me sectioned. It's the worst 10 minutes of the session. I hesitated today, kind of like "oh crap, how do I answer this to get him off the subject"....he said "Eileen, I need you to answer this"...I jumped out of my skin...I was like "oh ****, he knows"...but I got thru it. I don't need to be hospitalized, cause it ain't that bad. I tried telling him the first week it was a non-issue, but he just won't let me get him off the subject.

Is this weird? Do other T's do this?