I think I am just so sad and tired and lonely.

My best friend is very very very sick - it's scary and i want to take care of her, and I am as much as i can. My other best friend is taking care of her very sick dad 24/7. Their needs are so much greater than mine right now, and that is fine. I love them and I want to take care of them.

AND at the same time, i feel lonely and scared and sad.

i wish t could just take me home with him sometimes.