i know i can be so insecure, this time of year, specially this year i IM (i think thats what it's called) some people, (which I've never ever done until about a month ago.), it seems any communication i give and talking to others... i just feel i say the wrong thing, give to much info. or make a fool of myself entirely. i know some of these things are unfounded, maybe some aren't. It's just been since august, i can't shake the feeling today. another thing, i talking on the phone with a friend about some stuff from my past. usually, I'm very aware of this, but i have a loud Italian voice, and my daughter, came out of her room. i was so scared, she heard me. i don't think she did, by her reaction to my questions. just think sometimes recently... i should hide from the world. sorry so needy. just been a lots theses two months. just wish i could shake the feeling today. sorry i feel so needy today.