Hi Eileen,

I don't think it's that easy to get locked up. I've told T about sui thoughts and plans lots of times (pdocs too) and was never committed against my will.
Of course it depends on the T but I think as long as you can contract for your safey (which it sounds like you can honestly do), you don't really need to be hospitalized.

It might also help reassure your T if you can prove to him that you have a specific plan in case you end up in crisis mode - some hotline numbers lined up, and other support people you can call. It is good to have this written down because sometimes when we're in the middle of a crisis, it is kind of hard to think clearly.

About the email thing - my T has encouraged me to email her during the week if I need support. Sometimes I feel guilty for bothering her - I asked her how much I can email....could I email her 20 times a day. She said yes. She may not reply to them all, but I could send them.

Email really isn't an intrusion, like a phone call. When someone calls you during dinner it is really annoying, but if someone emails during dinner, no big deal......
Silly analogy but just sayin...
If he gave you his email address I think it would be fine for you to use it.
Take care!