I try not to go over 30 grams of fat a day. But I think I have to be going over that because I eat desserts that have no labels and are chocolate or pie with ice cream, albeit in small amounts. I'm going to be honest with myself and everyone. I think I'm at the start of an eating disorder and it's scaring me that I want to be thinner and thinner. Like as if with each pound lost I feel more powerful and each one gained I feel like I have no control and I'm a pig. But I think it started because I lost weight from the meds taking away my appetite and making me feel full so soon after I start a meal. I became obsessed with numbers and now both aspects are working toward driving me thinner.