For me I guess it also gets hard to know how to feel about myself because some of that depends on what's around me. The people around me always change and are all diverse so I try to accept how I look as just that being apart of me. I've never been told I'm heavy, but I have always felt heavy. I also can't control my weight very well; I have tried to lose weight but it either ends up getting me nowhere and I still feel down. At home the people in my family were either very active and fit, or had health problems due to excessive weight; there has always been a wide gap in the middle that I feel is where I belong. One thing I try to keep reminding myself is that how healthy someone is and their weight are not always related to one another; there are people who are average size, or ever underweight, that are unhealthy because of their diet and habits; there is also those who weigh more but are rather active and eat a well-balanced diet.