I want to be good to my body, but food is my comfort and reward (deserving in a whole different perspective) and I use it to feel like I'm 'doing' something (social need).
I want to look different but the positive and negative are interwoven. Maybe someday I will get it sorted out.

My therapist lost a lot of weight and while I am glad for her, it is like I have a new therapist, and it's unnerving somewhat. Her weight loss was gradual, and one day it was just so noticable and I couldn't believe I hadn't noticed before then. She is slim and has always dressed beautifully but now looks even more fashionable. It's kind of weird. I know that isn't what this thread is about, but my fingers just got to typing... lol

Sannah, good work and wishing you success