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I had the exact thought process you had, lol. I was telling myself not to worry about the future, that I have T *now*, but then a part inside me cried "no, I don't, she's gooone!"

But really I do. Everything is going to be okay. I hate to even think this, or say it, but if the worst does happen with T, it won't destroy me.

I'm realizing how much I build myself in other people, how I've always done that. I'm working on building myself in ME, so I can't lose myself again. I'm working on it, but I'm not there yet. I have to trust somehow that I won't lose T until I'm ready.