Oh...so...yes. The last visit with my PMHNP, she mentioned setting my next appt. for 3 months out (because of financial considerations, which I appreciate, but...). I must've gotten a look of horror. She moved it up to one month (coming up soon). I explained.... well, it's the first time I've actually had meds that created relative stability (being formerly misdiagnosed) and I just can't believe that I could go that long w/o a major crash. It's like waiting for the other shoe to drop. It always has before, so... there's a certain guardedness.

It's just that unknown! When a certain pattern's been going on so long, it's hard to believe that it could stay better for longer. You hope, but you don't know, and that's very disconcerting. (I was undiagnosed, then misdiagnosed for sooooo many years (---talking like 25 years, so seriously ingrained!), that stability is a really new concept that I still can't quite grasp, you know?)

So yeah, like you say, "trust" it. Totally get that.

(And as an addendum to earlier post... work got cancelled tonight. No complaints. Looking forward to a "real" night of sleep. Back at it tomorrow, daytime, totally familiar location. No problem. Yea.)