Recently I got someone to pull a 2 6 of vodka for me. My bad thoughts are drinking it to goto sleep, to feel numb, to feel good. Different reason and then the dangerous ones are to drink the whole thing and kill myself, drink till I wake up and dont know where I am....

Cutting has been re-entering my thought process and it's a difficult thing to think about. Especially when you havn't cut in a while and you desperately wanted a normal year. I just don't really know what to do.

I might take 2 or 3 shots before bed, might help.... I just really don't know at the moment. Might aswell just goto bed...

Night People